Anonymous: Define yourself. What kind of person do you think you are? Elaborate.

This is an interesting question, thank you. But I apologize because, I don’t think I can really answer it. I can’t, and don’t know how to define myself. I change..a lot. In everything and every way. I guess I could define myself that way. Ever-changing. The people I’m interested in change, the person I strive to be changes, my interests change, my goals change, my style changes, my taste in music and film and art, that all changes. I’m unpredictable, sometimes in a good way…lots of times in bad ways. This makes it hard to have one solid way of defining myself, because once I’m something…I’m something else the next week. And I don’t really understand what you mean when you ask what “kind” of person I am. I don’t know what “kinds” of people there even are. I’m an anxious person. I’m an easily bored, needing something new and stimulating all the time kind of person. I think that bothers people because I seem unsatisfied. I feel most confident and happy when I am alone, somewhere new, surrounded by people I don’t know…But that is also where I’m most uncomfortable. I like to watch people, and I’m usually pretty terrified of social situations. However sometimes I’m wonderful with them. So far the things I like that haven’t changed are flowers and horses and bubble baths and airports and new places and people watching and small cafes and going to see plays and rain. I’m selfish. But I love to make people happy, I like to make everything special for people. I want people to have a good time. I don’t know what I want to do at all…because my mind changes so much I never have a chance to figure it out. One day I hope to have a big group of friends, boys and girls, who I am comfortable around. I am really very good at isolating myself…and really bad at keeping friends, I hope that changes. I don’t worry about how people perceive me. But I’m scared to death of how I think of myself. I don’t feel guilty about anything. And I don’t apologize for what I’m not truly sorry for. I am a morning person. I like to be up when people are still sleeping. I like going out to breakfast and love breakfast in bed. I am confused.